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Hello my lovelies, I am back! [Even if it is only temporary]. I am back from work! Hooray! Cue happy dance here. Work is tiring, as is the ‘real world’. I’m beginning to stage a war on the ‘real world’ it doesn’t know what a ‘day off’ is. Hence the fact that I’m only going to be posting once a week, today.

Last time I said that I was going to stop restricting and exercising so much, despite how scared I was about the outcome. Well, it was exactly what I thought it would be. I more or less maintained my weight. I’m 41.9kg whereas my last weigh in was at 42.3kg so I have lost a little weight despite my many, many late night binges on all the food in my room. I don’t know what I was worried about. This is nothing. Nothing, nothing, nothing.

I’m happy and healthy [kind of]. Not having a scale is good. Not counting calories is good. Not compulsively exercising everyday is good. This is good. This is what I needed to realize how to be happy with food again. To not worry again.

I like this. I just don’t know how long this is going to last and that’s the thing that scares me the most.