Today was the beginning of my “new week”. Today was better than yesterday, a lot better. I managed to keep my calorie consumption under control, well within my limits. Within the “safety zone”. There was no panic tonight, no self loathing about how much food I had consumed during the day, no urge to purge everything. There was nothing, not even the urge to exercise. So because of that I’ve decided that today is going to be my “rest day” and that I get to have one designated “rest day” of each week. There’s only so much a person can put their body through before it just shuts down and that cannot happen this week, I simply have too much to do. Tomorrow is going to be different though, honestly. (Broken record, alert!). I’m planning on going to sleep early(ish) tonight so I can wake up and do yoga! I’ve recently discovered a television channel that broadcasts a session of yoga every morning so I’m planning on getting up and doing it too! Hopefully I’m not too tired, if I am I’ll simply give it a miss this time around. I’m also planning on doing at least two hours of walking on the treadmill tomorrow since I have a precious day off work! Hallelujah! It’s like they read my mind of when I want to exercise and restrict. It’s wonderful ❤ Tomorrow is the day. For sure. After tomorrow I’m going to be surrounded by candy, cakes and other wonderfully delicious (and fattening) foods for the rest of the week. My self-control is definitely going to be tested but if today is anything to go by then I can do it. I know I can do it now. Bring it on. I mean it this time.
Half grapefruit: 41 calories
Extra slim milk: 19 calories
Moccona Classic Instant Coffee: 2 calories
Vanilla essence: 12 calories
Chelsea White Sugar: 8 calories
– Total calories: 82
Fresh N Fruity Passion Pineapple Yogurt: 143 calories
– Total calories:143
Uncle Toby’s Le Snack: 84 calories
Extra slim milk: 19 calories
Chelsea sugar: 8 calories
Generic coffee: 2 calories
– Total calories: 113
Beef Taco Salad: 159 calories
– Total calories: 159
Total calories for day: 497 calories
Total carbs: 52g
Total fat: 20g
Total protein: 23g
For the first time I don’t feel the panic flooding my body, its peaceful. There’s no mad rush pushing me to get changed and get on the treadmill, to push myself until the numbers jump around and blur in time with my steps. There is no push to see the number of calories rise higher and higher until it’s larger than my last meal. There is no push to walk until my legs ache and I’m sure I can’t go any further without dropping.
Today there was no exercising, excluding the five minutes of sit ups that I did this morning. So technically, I’m 25 calories down because of that, which brings my total calorie intake for today to 472 calories. Woohoo ❤ I’m pumped. I cannot wait until tomorrow. Bring it on! I’m ready.